Willingness

It has been brought to my attention, (many times) that I am not as willing to try new things as I think I am. I'm kind of on a "when I feel like it" system. I'm not sure that bothers me all that much. But, it does bother someone that means the world to me. My blue-Belle. So... in my aim to fix that I'm going to have to change my game plan and not be so selfish when it comes to doing or trying things. I usually scoff at an idea, partly because it's not mine. Hah, how immature eh? I think the other part is because I want to do things when I want to do them, and not when someone else wants me to. Now that can be read wrong so I'll need to specify.

I'm not saying that I am all defiant and will never do what's asked of me. I'm also in no way the type of person that requires something in return. I don't even really know what I'm trying to get across right now. Just that I AM willing to try things. Even if I put up a fuss at first. Perhaps my fuss is a way of testing the stalwartness of the request. If met with little opposition and it goes away, then it wasn't worth doing. But my Belle, has been persistent, and I value her opinions of me and of my activities. If she makes requests, I fuss, and they still remain. Then I should know (even though I already did prior to the fuss) That they are well worth trying.

I'll try to write more. I'll try to read more. I'll try to walk more. I'll try to do more with myself. I will, I really will...